Tag: Mental illness

On First Encounters.

My mom met my son for the first time the other day.

I, honestly, didn’t know how it would feel. And I still don’t. I wasn’t sure what to expect and that made me anxious.

This past week had made me anxious.

It has taken its toll. Not only because of the George Floyd verdict, but the visit and I returned to work after 4 months…

It was a week.

I was thinking that I hadn’t been able to see her or hug her in over a year.

But with my mom, I had been thinking that my mom may never get to meet my son or that he would end up being a toddler (or older) by the time she did.

COVID has truly taken so much from us.

But it’s something you’d think I’d expect. After all, mental illness has taken so much from my family, from my mom…

But, with my mom having moved placements, however, there is a light. And soon we’ll actually be able touch. 🤗

See, although we got our visit, we had to socially distance still. I guess I just hadn’t thought about that part (although it makes perfect sense that we would). All of these visions of my being able to hug her and her finally being able to hold and hug my son… and it wasn’t so.

Soon it will come though. With vaccinations… Soon come Mom.

Until that time, I’m grateful for the hugs and smiles and words that my baby boy receives daily. I’m grateful for everyone that loves on him in a way that my mom has not yet been able to. In a way that, if I’m honest, she never will.

Man, mental illness has really taken so much from us.

On International Women’s Day 2019

Last year I posted this on my Facebook page, along with 2 images of my Mom.

There’s SO much I could say to this post.

But I won’t say it all.

I have struggled this past year, coping with the neverending loss of my mom (and I say never ending because my Mom is still alive, but I grieve, constantly, for the loss of the mother I grew up with).

As I make this transition back home, I am mindful of this opportunity to nurture and support my mom like she has done to me, my family, and others around her throughout her life.

While I am growing increasingly aware of the cyclical nature of life, I am grateful for the gift of nurturing bestowed upon me by this woman. Through the God that she so purposefully introduced me to YEARS ago.

Mothers, daughters, sisters, friends…

Take some time today and Be still. Rest in the uncertainty, the knowledge, the wisdom, the purpose, the breath, the boldness, & the potential of your Womanness.

On #InternationalWomensDay take heed of my friend, Amber Rochelle’s, advice and #OwnYourTruth.

That does not mean to simply acknowledge it, but take ownership, control, and care of it. Embrace it. Know its ins and outs and be a steward of it.

Love y’all Always,

Be 💛